The one I think about

Well I was thinking about writing about Cindy Sheehan and her supporters trying to pressure President Bush to pull out of Iraq, but this Eagles song came on and made me think of Lydia, so I'm gonna write about her instead. Lydia is much better than politics.

I've been quite a bit of thinking lately when I have time off from work that really is time off from work, when they don't try to call me in to work extra hours. I've been wondering why I'm doing what I'm doing and what's important to me. I don't really care about money, or my career as a butcher, and though I like writing, there is something more that drives me in this life. You might think I'm talking about Lydia right here, but there's something even more important, serving God. Serving God has got to be the most important thing in my life, otherwise I'm just working towards my eventual death, and there's not much sense in that now is there? All that I'm doing is meant to glorify God. I'm working to pay off student loans so I can start writing and share the ideas God has given me. Of course I can write now, but it would be so much easier to commit time to writing without a job to go to. I am also paying off student loans so that one day, God willing, I can marry Lydia.

God has brought Lydia and I together, though not as husband and wife yet. I want our relationship and later on our marriage to glorify God as well. I don't know exactly how we're gonna do it. I don't know what I'm gonna do in the future. I don't know what Lydia's going to do in her future. But I do know that we will work together to praise God with our lives. I'm not certain about what's to come, but I trust in God and in His plan. I have faith that God will provide for Lydia and I as we journey through life together. I'm not really worried about anything. I might think about certain things every now and then, but I don't brood over them like I used to.

One thing y'all can pray for for me is discipline to keep working out and staying active. I haven't always done the best job maintaining the temple which God has given me charge over, but I'm striving to get better at it. Without classes to walk to and such, execise isn't as much of a neccesity anymore, so now I have to specifically set time aside for it. I've been slipping of late and getting lazy, so prayers for strength and discipline would be appreciated. Thanks y'all and God bless.